I can't see a rainbow, see a rainbow too

i suddenly miss pauline (okay, that's always) and jas all the rest of the 402 ppl ):

i feel so disheartened and desensitised. everything's happening at the same time and i don't know which way to turn.

everyone's super dead tonight and it makes me feel worse that the people i love aren't too good themselves. ):

holidays are supposed to be happy, happy times right? what now? =/

i need to scream. GRAHHHHHHHH. okay that was more like a growl but nvm, gives me temporary pain and frustration release. like panadol you know, only better.